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Monday, January 23, 2012
Sunday, June 5, 2011
What I wanna be when I grow up
With my little brother graduating today It brought me back to my graduation 8 yrs ago...The ambition, joy and nieveness I had. I am going to be 26 and I still don't know what I want as a career. When I was little I swear every week I wanted to be something new. I see it with Skyler now he adds a new job ever 2-3 days. There are the main things that stayed with me through the years...I wanted to be a teacher..after having kids I realize I don't have the patience for other peoples children everyday...So that's not gonna work, A vet...I love Animals but not really want I want to do with my life. A lawyer I would have been amazing at this Bc I love to debate and I always think I'm right lol. My sister is a lawyer so nope not this either. A forensic scientist...I have always been fascinated by crime at 8 yrs old I was reading true crime books about serial killers. Profilers fascinates me... always have But there is not a big need for them where I am and Not something I will be able to distance myself from to come home and talk about. My children don't need those kinds of discussions in their home. Culinary arts I love to cook..maybe not doing dishes:-) but love to cook, experiment with food, decorate. This I can do at home, this I can Do with my children but is this a career or a hobby? restaurants don't survive very well in this economy where would I be with all my schooling on french cuisine, cake decorating, Japanese art of food?! I love to plan. I would love to be a party planner dabble in everything but do I need school for this? and I have always wanted to be a private investigator but again that involves confidentiality which I could do but with one person in my marriage already who has to have classified info would that just be too many secrets? So here I am back at square 1...When I grow up I want to be...I have no idea and that scares me...where do I start?
Friday, June 3, 2011
Another year
Maverick and Cadence's Birthday party is tomorrow. Most dont know I am having a really hard time right now. Im trying to hide it well. My husband is my best friend and we have always made sure we played a major role in our childrens lives together. This will be the 2nd birthday in a row that Eric has missed. My children are daddys boys all the way and I try to make his presence known. I will wrap gifts and go get them from the mail box "This is from daddy" I will say. It kills me he is not here. But At least he is here in heart and someday will be home. he is not gone forever and tomorrow is a new day. So these 2 weeks are hard so many major parts of the year happen in these 14days. My youngest turned 2, My middle will turn 4. He is going to start preschool and my oldest is graduating kindergarten.. These are important milestones in a childs life and there daddy is not here. it saddens me but I will not let them know that. I will make their dad a bigger part of the day then Me. I get everyday, I want him to have a memory for each special day that passes. Daddy always gives the coolest present. And that is what they will remember what big part did daddy play in the day<3 I do good. I try very hard to be independent. I have my days I just want to cry. When you are a parent you do not have that option you have to keep on trucking and I will to get me through these 2 weeks and on to the next. By then we will be toi the middle of June and it brings hes embrace so much closer<3 I dream of that day and cannot wait. If your SO is home please Love them and dont take them for granted charish the time you have. Never say goodbye and kiss like its your last so every minute is the best<3
Friday, April 1, 2011
Tuesday, March 29, 2011
Newbie
OKay Im new at this so take it easy on me:-) I have wanted to do a blog for a long time. Not for anybody but me because really who wants to read my thoughts, but to get my thoughts down. I have a 100 thoughts racing through my head at any given second and today I start sorting them out <3
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